Wednesday, January 24, 2007
MY LIFE IS GETTIN WORSTER!!!!!!
HaiZ...i gettin 2 feel tat i hate my life!!!!!!!wats the point on me livin in tis stupid world
Last year i had a bad year but when the new year start i though tis new year will be a better 1....
The first few weeks went veri well BUT on the 3rd week i felt tat it is worst
Frm the 23jan frm mornin till nite my whole of my feelin went rite 2 the bottem n i felt like throwin my temper or shout....but i keep it in the whole of the mornin,in the afternoon after remider when we r hafin NPCC meetin,when rufisha said bye 2 mannan onli but the penguin said bye n mannan tel penguin tat she is sayin bye 2 him onli...but the penguin shouted at mannan a few sentance...tat is the time my boilin point almost reach 2 the max cos i realli realli cant stand his attidude in shoutin 2 my frens jus like tat...so i shouted back at him 2 make him feel how it is like 2 be shouted at..lucky i control myself well or i will jus wack him hard on the face....frm tat time on i feel veri veri moody....When i reach home i tel myself tml(which is today)will be a better 1....But on 24 jan i am veri veri happy in the mornin but is like almost everythin is turin againist me...assembly a time my class 4A2 is the last class 2 leave than later durin NPCC i felt veri happy 2 meet them but when i am tryin 2 explain some games 2 them the sec 2 and 3s keep tokin 2 their frens n nt listenin 2 me...
I try 2 keep my feelings 2 myself n nt gif up by askin them 2 listen 2 me but it is no use...OK nvm i jus leave them alone,later after NPCC my mei mei told me tat she wanted 2 quit band n join NPCC...But i told her nt 2 quit band 2 join NP,i realli dun understand y she wan 2 quit band so i told her nt 2 quit band than suddenly her face change than look down nt tokin...i felt sooo guilty i realli dunno wat i said 2 make her soooo sad so i felt realli realli stress!!!!so i jus walk off cos like she dun wan c me like tat....i am realli so stress,firstly i realli weak cos i nvr eat whole day i control the weakness,second i had mani hmk 2 do,thirdly stress cos mei mei wan quit band n join np n i made her sad,lastly i dunno wat is wrong wif me as ppl climbin over my head n when am tokin they dun listen n let me tok 2 wall.....
I REALLI DUNNO WAT IS THE MATTER WIF MYSELF!!!!!!!SPEAKIN,MAKIN FRENS,OR EVEN DO ANYTHIN SIMPLE OSO CANNOT!!!!!!!!HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!
June 2006
